Can God Be Real and Personal to Me If the Sign Gifts of the Spirit Are Rare?

Questions about disappointment that the sign gifts of the Spirit seem rare, non-existent, or fake, whether or not believers can squelch the Holy Spirit, and whether 2 Peter 1:21 points to the Holy Spirit “impressing” us during prophecy. I came to faith because the gifts of the Spirit that seemed integral to church life in the Bible made God so real and personal, but now that I’ve found the gifts to be rare, non-existent, or fake, I have doubts I know anything about God. Can the squelching of the Holy Spirit be supported biblically, and can we, as believers, squelch the Holy Spirit? Does 2 Peter 1:21 point to the Holy Spirit “impressing” us during prophecy?